As much as I love and adore baseball, the Yankees are really frustrating this season when it comes to their games against the Red Sox, I mean the Sox have beaten the Yankees this year 8 times out of 8 games and it is getting pretty annoying to watch. Now this weekend is the series with the Mets and they are also coming off a losing series with the Phils and it's going to be an interesting weekend here in NY with these two teams as they battle to get back to first place and it just sucks that they are playing each other at a time where the both teams need to win and no one has the ability to give up a win here and there. ughhh.... we'll see how it goes, first pitch around 7pm, hopefully none of the games get rained out, weird how we are having so much rain here lately for June but I don't mind too much cause it's keeping the weather cool as I can not stand the hot weather. oh well, that's about all for now.

well my grades are in for the semester, 2 A's, B, & D which is surprising because i thought i was going to fail that class and would have to take it over, but he gave me a passing grade, so i'm a little bit happy about that cause now I just have my 2nd internship course and managing for change class for the next three months and then i'm finally going to be done... i'll actually have a degree with my name on it and it fucking scares the shit out of a person who really has no goals in her life..

busy weekend ahead that I am not looking forward to, just been feeling lazy and don't want to do much of anything, my room has all my stuff all around, my closet just has clean clothes thrown in and not put nicely away, ugh i fucking hate it, but everytime i attempt to go clean i just get blah and would rather do something else.

tomorrow Ef wants me to chill with her Jimmy and Teddy tomorrow at Vibe in Astoria Queens, ughh, i fucking hate clubs and club music especially greek club music. fucking every greek person i know goes there and i hate it because i hate greek club people, they are so fake and full of themselves.

saturday i'm supposed to chill with Rodson, Akeim, Edwin, Louis, etc., for Rodson's supposed bachelor party/dinner thing before the wedding on Sunday, so i'll have to see if i'm up for it or not.

speaking of sunday, well it's Rodson's wedding day (which i can't believe because when I first met him back in Jan 2006 he was such a player, lol, but it's nice to see him settle down with his chick he's been seeing a little over a year or so) which in a way i'm not looking forward to mainly because of the weather, it's supposed to be snowing and cold and disgusting out and i plan on wearing this dress that i got that i actually look somewhat decent in and i really hate to dress up because everything i wear makes me look like shit or it dont fit right. but anyway i like the dress and it was only $14 at oldnavy, so it's cool.

thats about it.. it's about 5 mins to 10pm and i just felt like typing this up cause i'm listening to christmas music and was playing chrono trigger on my ds, but i think i'm going to go watch some AVGN so i can cheer up a little because i was literally staring at my wall for a good 3+ hours just thinking about what i wrote and going back and forth wondering if i should send it and also arguing with Ef about sending you the christmas card because i told her i just can't be a bitch and not care because i care too much and i'm not going to let this little bump stop me from sending you a card and about how i feel.

you want to hear from me you said, so i'm telling you things, whether it's the words you want to hear or not, i'm sorry i can't sugar coat it, but i thought that's what you loved about me..

but now it seems i'm part of your "fuck off everyone in the human race" pile and it really sucks..